My life began as a Roman Catholic and I remained a luke-warm one for many years. The mystery of the rituals always intrigued me. But throughout my life, there was always a hunger for the occult, especially anything to do with communicating with spirits. My Catholic education provided me a background in the Latin language which has been very helpful in my study of spirits and "Diabolism," "Devilism" Satanism. It also launched my interest in Renaissance magic and alchemy.
About eleven years ago, I became interested in vampires and was bound to a female vampire spirit by the name of Karina, by a "Blood Witch" in Poland. Unfortunately, she has been lost to me 😥 (more about that below). I liked her very much and would love to have her return. A friend of mine who is a Witch told me that Karina is terrified of Lilith and has probably run away to avoid Lilith. But it was the experience with Karina that truly opened me up to practicing the LHP. I read everything I could get my hands on about everything-occult. I listened to every video I could find (and I found a lot of them). I then became obsessed with Lilith (I use the word obsessed intentionally) and had experienced possession on several occasions. My experiences with Lilith are too many to recount and some of those experiences were not pleasant but I accept that as "coming with the territory." Bu full disclosure: I am guilty of doing many things that have both disappointed and angered her.
Through my relationship with Lilith, my path has become more "sinister" and more serious. Lilith has led me to levels in my beliefs and workings that I could have never conceived of in the past. I can honestly say that my relationship with Lilith has changed my life and I don't mean just my spiritual life.
It was Lilith who led to me to E.A. Koetting and his workings and colleagues. I have been a member at BALG.com for may years now. And it was through E.A. that I was led to the works of Asenath Mason and it was those works that have assisted me in my relationship with Lilith.
I have also taken a deep-dive into Luciferianism through the works of Michael W. Ford.
Most recently, I have become deeply interested in practicing "Enochian" magic from where I take my current screen name, Madimi's Prom Date.
Like most of the people who have posted here, I am a solitary practitioner. But that is not by choice. I have just not found a group / Coven with whom I feel truly comfortable. However, I am pleased to see that I am getting more comfortable here at Satania. And I certainly hope Satania can be my new spiritual home.
How have your path of Draconian magick has been? I've bought the Draconian Rituals book online and made it to page 58 stopping at the point of working with Draconian god and goddesses and spirits. I've been getting some confirmation with some of the images I would see during meditation (once I get past 40 minutes) reflected in the book such as:
A white diamond
Lilith and possibly Hekate.
Have you worked with multiple deities before? I never had but, I do feel energy from Sekhmet, Seth, Hekate, and Lilith.
Sometimes the site does show various errors I suppose when retrieving information but, after a couple of seconds it returns to normal. I just usually refresh or wait a bit and that could be technical issues and/or spiritual.
I don't think it's a 'captain obvious' meaning because, there is conflict between the mind and heart and I try to find the most reasonable explanation from the images I see during meditation. Usually when I meditate I allow my conscious mind exhaust itself for a good 15 minutes before allowing my subconscious mind to take over (although, I noticed when I exercise beforehand my mind gets straight to the point). Once it gets around 40 minutes that's when the images appear and it only feels like a couple of seconds in that deep meditative state where as soon as I get up it seems surreal and there's a sense of loss regarding time a reality.
I've been pursing the vampyre path through meditation but, nothing with rituals or spells because I wanted to make sure I have a strong foundation first and properly understand the materials, beliefs, potential risks, etc which is why I had bought Ford's vampyre book which was far beyond anything I've ever done and it would take time for me to get to that level. Not to mention, he does say it's very dangerous and recognizes it's not a path for every Luciferian.
I have seen other styles of Vampyrism online and don't mind doing energy work but, as an eclectic I wasn't for sure if what I would be doing would be considered legitimate. I have seen more vivid images with vampyrism such as sucking the blood of a woman who was willing during meditation, working in conjunction with the moon, lunar crystals and bats. Whereas Serpentine it's not strong (could be because it's still new for me) It's difficult to see images because they are shrouded in darkness and even then it's just serpent eyes, ruby and opal crystals and shadow-like snakes. Although, once I gotten to the 40 minute mark I did see myself (I assume higher self?) with red eyes and golden tongue and that was it.
I think it kind of clashes with me because I was hoping to only have one path to keep my practices and beliefs simple for me so I can use it on a daily basis but, I don't know anymore. If at the very least it could be the battle of my everyday conscious mind vs the 'other' mind.
I think you give good advice to look into the path of the dragon again, I only barely touched the surface of it. I know that fire magick is something I'm drawn to more than other elemental styles such as air, water, or earth ( I was born under an earth sign) so perhaps that's another reason.
I keep seeing E. A Koettings work throughout the LHP I was thinking about giving his books a try. I mostly read Michael W Ford's work because (I may be the minority) I still am secular but, I do think there might be more than a mundane world. I'm solitary as well, and an eclectic witch where I think fire is my main source of power along with the moon (not even too sure if Vampyre path is right as I've been seeing snakes and dragons).
Either way, it's good to meet other people on here and like you, I grew up in an RHP religous home...except it was baptist fundamentalists (borderline extremists).
I'd also like to try the experience with a female vampire companion....